So here we go again, again! And again....and again and again and again.
I've been turning over this weight-loss problem in my head for the last few days and can't figure out what the goal should be, which seems stupid considering that obviously I'm overweight and could use to lose a few (like, say a paltry 30 or 40lbs) . Then again, there seem to be lots of reasons to toss the whole idea out the window and just be chunky! Ha! There, I said it.
I have been fighting with my weight for my entire adult life, and NEVER gotten to my goal...and I'm wondering if I have the dedication to keep working on it. Would it be so bad to just be the way I am forever? Has it just become a habit to be frustrated with myself? Could I learn to accept myself like this?
So in the interest of being a little more objective, I have put together a list of pro's and con's for continuing to bang my head against the wall - I mean, to make an effort at weight loss.
CON (in no particular order)
1. it takes effort and staying fat is easier
2. Holy crap! I had a whole list in my head but once I started typing them out I realized that they all just boil down to #1. So, to the pro's....
PRO (in no particular order)
1. Oh my, there are so many that I'm too lazy to type them all out.
You know what I just realized? Fundamentally I am a pretty lazy person...which may very well be why I have never gotten to my goal weight. It may also be the reason why my house is such a disaster most of the time. Or maybe it's the cumulative effect of not getting anywhere near enough sleep for the last seven years...could it be that that is the missing link? Hoo hoo! Eureka!
All right then, perhaps that is what I should be working on instead of constantly wondering why I can't seem to find the time or energy to follow through with anything.
The sleep thing is a problem too, though - how on earth do I find the time to sleep more? In order to be a semi-attentive mother, I have to be awake when my kids are awake. In order to bring home a paycheque I have to be at work part of the time that they're asleep. Hmmm...something will have to change here so that balance can become a possibility.
