...you don't learn. That's what one of our taekwondo masters said today, and it sure rang true in my ears! I almost didn't go to class today; apparently the psychological scars from testing on Friday are still wide open and I wanted to either turn around and drive home in tears, or puke...but the girlies were nervous about going back too so there was no showing weakness. Not much, anyway.
It was a great class though, and I'm very glad I went.
I was actually going to call today's post "This woman will self-destruct in 10...9...8..." because I had SUCH a good couple of days - NO starch at all for 2 days and I was feeling ridiculously good, and then it all went to shit today. I mean, what the hell? Why do I do this to myself? It's not like I don't know better!
I blame the cookies. Tuesday is my special mommy-and-Sarah day, and just about her favorite thing to do together is bake something. Today it was cookies. I started out (paving the road to hell) with the best intentions; we were going to make super-healthy nut-butter-flax cookies. I have been diligently working away at using up the ends of stuff in our cupboards (in preparation for the biggest trip to costco ever, coming up early next month) so I was very creative with what went into the cookie dough...and we ended up with the most mother-beautiful cookie dough that I didn't even want to bake them. But, as always, they were better baked so needless to say I made a giant sow out of myself, first on dough and then on cookies. Blargh.
So I fell down, hopefully learned something, and tomorrow is a new day. The Paleo Diet is on it's merry way here as I tap away at my keyboard; looking forward to reading about how to do this properly. I'm pretty psyched considering how great I felt when I ditched the starch for two days!
Pastries are my great weakness, too. I had a very yummy turtle cheesecake for my b-day on the weekend. It was very good on Saturday after dinner (which was fairly indulgant as well--Ukranian food at the Mundare Sausage outlet), but even better as *a whole meal* the next morning. I've been good since, though
ReplyDeleteWhy DO we do that to ourselves??? I feel SO much better when I just stay away from carbs (no special diet, just don't have bread, rice, potatoes, etc). And yet I always find myself again, stuffing my face with four pieces of the fresh bread out of the oven...lumps of cookie dough... It's definitely an addiction! Keep trying - better to be trying and fail sometimes than never try, right??
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